Monday, December 21, 2009

DREAMER .......

"your clock has started ticking", gasping for air, finding it hard to keep her eyes open,but these words sounding loud and clear in her mind. she realized she had almost forgot about it. Her mind went wandering to her childhood when her cousins would tell her that they dreamt her flying a helicopter, riding a big white horse, riding a loin and she with enthusiasm declaring, "yeh i remember , that was me , did you see how beautiful clothes i was wearing". these self deceleration were what the older cousins of her liked, they enjoyed these wild exaggerating of her imagination, for them it was an enjoyable performance. Her mother encouraged her to dream bigger and bigger, even after knowing that others where everyday cooking up stories and letting the girl to complete those wild imaginations. one day in the morning the little girl came running to her mother and said that she dreamt herself riding a white elephant and a herd following her. Her mother told her not share this dream to anybody, it was a dream dreamt by those who were going to rule over a kingdom.

She grew up, but her thoughts and words always made her to look much older than the other kids of her age group. when other girls were playing with dolls, she was discussing politics with her grandfather,these kinds of behavior always made her the odd one out among her age group. The other thing that she was gifted with was winning of hearts, making people smile in worst times even though she was terrible with jokes, helping people even if she didn't know them. With time her dreams became bigger and bigger, she started to dream about other people, she had started to dream for them, she started to dream about a Utopian state. she used to say, "dream big and keep your eyes open while dreaming , u will get it". She even dreamt about her exit from this world, half of the world with moist eyes saying her good bye, she wanted herself to be remembered long after she was gone, she wanted to continue to live even with out physical presence. she wanted to be there in the hearts of people till eternity.

As is the case with dreams , all can't be true. her dream also was broken even before she had finished dreaming, with these very words, "your clock has started ticking". She visited a doctor for an ailment which seemed to be a not so serious thing, but the doctors words changed her whole life for ever. it had been five years since then and she had kept on moving from one place to another, not being at a place for more than a year. Trying to not to get attached to people, but where ever she went every single soul that she touched was overwhelmed by her caring and charming nature. but with the passing years she had mastered one Act of her's - "Vanishing". When ever she felt that she was getting attached to any place or people she would just vanish in thin air, no goodbyes.

she had been in the current place for more than a year and was finding it hard to do what she did best, "vanish". she had tried to vanish twice but her heart had failed her, she had always tried not get in a relationship but all her precautions had gone out of the window when she met a guy, who always had a mysterious smile on his face , eyes filled with strange shine, a strange kind of attractive force was all around him which pulled her towards him. she tried to give herself false hope that she can vanish from here also and with time everything would be back to normal. but she had never imagined that it could be so hard for her to vanish from here. with every passing day vanishing from here was becoming more and more harder. She new that she had to leave this place quickly. but before leaving she wanted to say GOODBYE for the very first time, but she didn't know how to say it as she never had.

Her dream of her exit from this world was no more her dream, she wanted to leave this world as quietly as possible, she didn't want anybody to miss her or even remember her name. she no more wanted her kingdom, which had grown exponentially with each passing day of her life, The Kingdom of Hearts.she no more wanted to DREAM !


  1. So a story teller on board this time!!A very good piece of writing..nice to see a purely emotional one coming from you.good going and never stop dreaming.It might sound Utopian but dreaming does add new meanings to your life.
    P.S:do u now understand what was i talking about in my last post??..similar emotions.

  2. Hi! So here is the much awaited Comment Ifti. As far as the story goes,it is a good piece of writing. The only thing that left me wondering was the end, as in how did she deal with it. Hope you write a sequel to it, so that I get answers to my curiousness. Didn't knew you write this kinf of stuff too. Njoyed reading :)

  3. ya..ya...this one desrves a comment! :)That's a good story. Would ave appreciated if it could have been less of an emotional upheaval. Makes it tiring sometimes.
    Overall, liked reading.

  4. @ vampy, @sumi : thank u so much for your comments, after all it is people like u who make me keep on writing n then wait for your comments, always eagerly wait foe your comments.
    @ swati: thank u so much ur highness, am higly obliged. will try my best to keep you doing me this favor ;)

  5. i read the story late but then went on reading it short it deserved a standing ovation...there is so much subtlety and unexpressed desires that one cant help but relate with those unstated emotions running all through those wonderfully structured lines..layers of emotions put together to make a compelling reading...hope to read/dream more ....

  6. @ shadow of memories: may i know who is this, have never recieved such an overwhelming response (comment).... so can u let me know who u r ...